Much of my life I spent running from God and hiding from Him all because I feared Him. I feared Him because I did not know Him. It has taken me a lifetime to discover God for who He truly is and learn that He is not the God that I thought I knew based on my own preconceived and faulty notions.
Eventually, life’s circumstances gave me two choices as far as I could tell, and they were: One, stop running from God. Second, if not, then surely I would die! I chose to stop running and do the work laid out before me. I am here to say, it has not been an easy path, but it has been worth it. Worth it because I have uncovered the most incredible truths about God and in the process discovered the truth about myself.
God, as I now know Him, is a God of grace, mercy and unconditional love. I desired unconditional love and a relationship where I was known for who I truly am in spite of all my faults and shortcomings. I hungered and longed for a relationship where I could be real and authentic, removing all of my masks or false-faces. I just wanted to be deeply known and loved passionately. No matter what I did or didn’t do something always remained missing and hurting deep inside of me. There was a void that was constantly longing and needing to be filled within me, yet, I did not know what the need was or how to “fix” it.
My experiences in life have taken me down many paths and while I have had great joy I have also known great sorrow. During the times of great sorrow, I learned more about myself, God and others than I ever thought possible. It was during the times of great sorrow that I came face to face with God, as revealed to us in the person of Jesus, and as I let go of my fears and moved closer towards Him, I entered into the most precious relationship. I discovered a passionate God and found His passion was for me, and for you. He will pursue us without ceasing in a desire to capture our wounded and broken hearts. He will restore us and transform us so that we can receive His love, learn to love and care about ourselves, and in turn reach out and love others.
I’ve discovered He pours out His gift of grace to each and every one of us. We did nothing to earn His grace. As a matter of fact, there is nothing we can do to earn it. No act on our part, no amount of performance, no works or good deeds can earn this incredible, and often times hard-to-understand and misrepresented, grace.
Typically, humans teach “religion”–a type of living whereby human beings try to make themselves acceptable to God through their own actions or works–God reveals something totally different and more beautiful than the human mind can imagine. Through the Person of Jesus Christ, who reveals to us the Father, we discover God’s grace, His love and His passion for us. As we discover the truth–the Person of Jesus–we begin to enter into an intimate and authentic relationship with Him. We come to know that love, grace, mercy and truth is a Person and His name is Jesus. By intimately knowing Him, as He intended, we begin to gain freedom from the lies we believe about ourselves, others and God.
Come along with me and learn to dance!
39 “You search the Scriptures because you think they give you eternal life. But the Scriptures point to me! John 5:9
6 Jesus told him, “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one can come to the Father except through me. John 14:6
Contact: Kiki @ DancingWithGod@charter.net