My Father’s Voice

There are times when life’s circumstances seem to jump out at me in a way that leaves me frightened, confused and all alone. I find myself struggling to make sense out of my life and the world I live in. All around me people are experiencing fear, doubt and confusion; nothing makes sense and life seems uncertain and all hope seems gone.

During life’s uncertainties, my default response, is fear. Now, with that said, I do not stay in fear–I just seem to go there first and then eventually I dig my way out. Does that sound at all familiar to you or is this struggle mine alone?

I’ve come to discover, when I’m living in fear, there is something I am believing that is not true. I’m reminded how critical it is to identify truth and discard any lies that I do believe. These are the very lies that leave me trembling in fear and confusion. Yet, there are times when these lies actually feel as if they are the truth, and the truth feels like the lie. I’m realizing that just because it feels true, that doesn’t make it true. To regain my balance and perspective, I must ask myself several questions: What lie am I believing? What is the truth? Where must I go to find the truth?

Today, I once again struggle with this whole issue of fear and find myself digging through God’s word–the Bible–looking for what He has to say. I’ve decided the voice within my head that makes me fear is not the voice I want to listen to and certainly not the voice I want to believe! As I dig into His word, I realize, I’m looking for my Father’s voice. I need to hear what He has to say, not the world’s version of the truth, but what does my Father say? He is the one I want to listen to, He is the one I want to believe, He is the one that will calm me and take away my fear as I lean in and listen to His voice.

His voice is the voice of truth and not lies; love not fear; hope not hopelessness; conviction not condemnation; grace, mercy and acceptance not judgment and performance; unconditional love not selfishness; life-giving not death-giving; encouragement not discouragement. These are the things spoken by my Father. When the world around me is falling apart before my very eyes, His voice is the one that brings back my balance and perspective and removes my fear and replaces it with His perfect love.

Yes, life’s circumstances are forever changing and uncertain. But, if we are listening to His voice, our fears begin to calm and we are reminded of His ever-present help in times of trouble and His constant and faithful love. Then we shall remember–He is the same today, yesterday and tomorrow. He holds us by our right hand, we do not need to be afraid. Our hope is in Him and Him alone–He is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice and His unfailing love surrounds us!

God bless you and keep you in His perfect peace and love!Bible w:Hand


Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Hebrews 13:8

So we can say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper, so I will have no fear. What can mere people do to me? Hebrews 13:6

For I hold you by your right hand — I, the Lord your God. And, I say to you, “Don’t be afraid. I am here to help you. Isaiah 41:13

We put our hope in the Lord. He is our help and our shield. In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. Let your unfailing love surround us, Lord, for our hope is in you alone. Psalm 33:20-22

Contrast of voices from Barbara Moon’s blog “Joyful Musings on Thoughts We Have”

“The Truth About Lies and Lies About the Truth” by David Takle

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Shattered But Not Broken!

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall, Humpty Dumpty had a great fall; all the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put Humpty together again. 

I know you remember that old nursery rhyme! Who doesn’t, right? The way I see it, Humpty, who happened to be an egg, was minding his own business, enjoying life, when he fell off a wall. Having fallen, he was shattered into tiny pieces. In fact, he was so shattered, he seemed to be beyond repair.

That old riddle often came to mind during the times I felt the most shattered, the most broken and wounded. There was a point in my life when I could not imagine that my shattered pieces could ever be put together again. I could not see how something so shattered could ever achieve wholeness. Just as in the nursery rhyme, my thoughts were–if all the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put the pieces together again, then who could? It appeared, that was the end of Humpty Dumpty. But, was it?

I would like to share with you the following excerpt, from The Life Model, Living From the Heart Jesus Gave You, by E. James Wilder, et al., Chapter 1, Pages 15-17, which outlines the journey or path towards wholeness, where our shattered pieces can be put back together again. The following speaks to what that journey might look like and how it can be achieved.

It has been said that God is not the great magician–He is the great physician. That saying addresses a question which people need to think about clearly. Whether fixes from God are always “quick.” People typically seek the quickest way out of pain, which is understandable. Pain, of course, demands immediate attention. A more mature approach, however, is to seek God’s redemption in the middle of the pain, asking Him to bring healing into our wounds–(which can be a much slower process). God does His work in us, pointing us toward wholeness, even while we are in pain. But it is not simply His work; it is our work too. It takes maturity and tenacity on our part to achieve wholeness, and that means persistently dealing with our pain.

There may be times when we are not in a place where we are free from pain, but we can still experience God’s amazing redemption. An often-quoted passage in II Corinthians 12 describes how the apostle Paul learned a key lesson. When he was struck with a tormenting problem which did not go away, even though he pleaded with the Lord three times, he got an answer he was not looking for: God works through weaknesses. What a profound discovery–he learned to delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, and in difficulties. The good news of the Gospel is that God wants to be with us in the middle of our struggles. That is precisely when He exercises His strength in us. Paul learned to let God be in charge, and to stop asking God to end his hardship. God’s strength flowed through Him because Paul stopped trying to be in control. He let God take over, and God was able to use him more effectively. Paul could delight in suffering because he found it was an opportunity for God’s strength to work through him.

Central to the Christian experience is an unchanging belief that God is at work in all things for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28), and that means all things. He is particularly at work when we are stuck in pain that seems to be endless and meaningless. The time-honored Christian approach to pain and wholeness involves our activity as well as God’s: His work in us is to bring redemption to all of the traumas that have broken us, and our work is to strive for maturity as we progress to wholeness.  The word “redemption” is sometimes difficult to understand, simply because it is used in so many contexts. Here is the way it is used in The Life Model: Redemption is God bringing good out of bad, leading us to wholeness, and the experience of God’s amazing power. Redemption means that out of our greatest pain, can come our most profound personal mission in life.

The biblical understanding of wholeness is succinctly described in the first chapter of James. We are instructed there to consider it pure joy whenever we are in the middle of suffering, because that will lead to wholeness. Suffering tests our faith and builds our endurance, so that we can be mature and complete–not divided, but whole. James cautions that we must ask God for wisdom during this stormy process. It takes total faith to believe that God will  bring us through the storm, or we will be unable to “receive anything” from God; without total faith in God we remain “double-minded”–divided (verse 8). Wholeness comes as we let Him lead us through the storms. We are to welcome suffering because it brings down the walls in our fragmented life so that we can become mature and complete (verse 4). It is God’s intent to bring redemption to the wounded and fragmented places in our lives so that our weaknesses can be transformed into strengths. That can happen when we honestly address our pain. Suffering can lead to wholeness if we embrace it. It will take endurance and time, but the benefits are well worth it.

I look back in time and so clearly see what was not obvious to me then. I see God’s hand–His heart–in every tiny part of my journey. Although, I discovered there are no quick fixes from the things in life that create pain, there is a path to wholeness. It is not achieved quickly–it takes both time and endurance.

Yes, life’s circumstances do have a way of leaving us feeling shattered into a million pieces, and, while it might feel true, reality is, we are not broken beyond repair–the shattered pieces can be put back together again.

Although, all the king’s horses and all the king’s men couldn’t put Humpty’s shattered pieces together again, as I’ve discovered, and you can too, there is someone who can.

I promise you the journey is worth it!humpty-dumpty


61 The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed and qualified me (Jesus) to preach the Gospel of good tidings to the meek, the poor, and afflicted; He has sent me to bind up and heal the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the [physical and spiritual] captives and the opening of the prison and of the eyes to those who are bound. Isaiah 61:1

From there he went all over Galilee. He used synagogues for meeting places and taught people the truth of God. God’s kingdom was his theme–that beginning right now they were under God’s government, a good government! He also healed people of their diseases and of the bad effects of their bad lives. Word got around the entire Roman province of Syria. People brought anybody with an ailment, whether mental, emotional, or physical. Jesus healed them, one and all. More and more people came, the momentum gathering. Besides those from Galilee, crowds came from the “Ten Towns” across the lake, others up from Jerusalem and Judea, still others from across the Jordan. Matthew 4:23-25

28 And we know that God causes everything to work together[a] for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them. Romans 8:28

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Up Close And Personal

Heart MendingIt can’t be argued, it can’t be debated, it’s a truth we can’t deny. We are relational beings and we are designed–created and wired–for relationship and community with God and others.

Starting at birth, every aspect of life involves relationship, beginning with the family we are born into (family of origin) which includes a community of extended family and friends.

Relationship seems like a simple fact of life, but is it? It seems to me, it is not! In reality, relationships can be all too complicated. The truth is, many of us have broken relationships and we have absolutely no idea how to mend or repair them. Some of us even have a few we wish we could escape from!

We live in a fallen and broken world–we humans are imperfect in an imperfect world–and one of the results of that brokenness–imperfection–is that our own human heart can be wounded in the process. Once wounded, without healing, we can live out of the hurt or pain from these past wounds (damage, injury, distress, grief, anguish or torment). Once this occurs, we can react towards others from this place of pain. This is not to say that others do not do or say things that hurt us and create pain, but rather, we are responsible for what goes on within us internally and how we react. We learn to ask questions of ourselves such as: Why do I react to others as I do; and, what are my triggers? Being focused externally–looking at others as our problem–will only lead to a victim mentality of self-justification and blaming of others instead of taking responsibility for our own pain.

For healthy relationships we must begin to heal and grieve our past wounds and/or trauma(s). This requires a loving and supportive community of people who have traveled this path before us. Too often, the heart God places within each of us is covered up and it hides beneath our pain. When this happens we live from a false-self. We are intended to live from the heart Jesus gave us and not the one buried beneath our pain. We are meant to move towards a path of wholeness and emotional maturity. Because we humans are relational beings we do not thrive well in life without strong-loving bonds where we are in community with others. It takes both family and community for us to live from our full potential the way God intended. See The Life Model, Chapter 1, Page 11-13, by E. James Wilder, PhD., et al.

In my personal journey towards wholeness, I am eternally grateful to those that traveled before me–your love and support mean more to me than you will ever know–and, I suspect you know who you are! Thank you for selflessly sharing your own journey, your pain and struggles, allowing me, and those like me, to receive healing and restoration–wholeness. As a result, it is possible to be up close and personal in relationship with God and others as He intended all along.

Heart Mending

May God richly bless you and may you delight in the love and passion He has for you!


FYI: For an in depth understanding of healing from past wounds and/or traumas, achieving wholeness, maturity and life-giving community, see The Life Model, by E. James Wilder, PhD., et al.

Lies, Deception And Other Tangled Webs

Be happy with those who are happy, and weep with those who weep. Romans 12:15

And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them. Romans 8:28

If I wanted to boast, I would be no fool in doing so, because I would be telling the truth. But I won’t do it, because I don’t want anyone to give me credit beyond what they can see in my life or hear in my message, 7 even though I have received such wonderful revelations from God. So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud. Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. 10 That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:6-10

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does. James 1:2-8

12 Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him. James 1:12

16 Don’t be deceived, my dear brothers. 17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. 18 He chose to give us birth through the word of truth, that we might be a kind of first fruits of all he created. James 1:16-18

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He Loves Me, He Loves Me Lots!

Daisies & Lady Bug

Come on! I know you remember the game–all we girls played it–He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not! Most of us will remember playing this little game as young children. I bet even some of you guys played it. We tried to decide if the love of our life–the object of our forever affection–was going to return our love. He or she was the boy or girl of our dreams, and we would surely die if he or she did not return our love!

How sweet and innocent those long ago days of childhood where something as simple as a flower, and a song, could speak to our hearts about love, and all that was sure to follow.

Although many years have come and gone, there is one thing I am certain of–it is not by accident this deeply imbedded longing and desire that pulls at our hearts. We crave to love and be loved–we crave acceptance and approval–we crave true intimacy where we are known for who we truly are, yet loved all the same. Oh, how we long for our heart’s desires to be fulfilled giving us what we so desperately want and need!

As I look back, I find a striking parallel with those days of long ago where I pulled petals from flowers, to see if I was truly loved–or not, and how I interacted in my relationship with God and others. In my efforts, to love and be loved, I became performance-based. I tried to be everything for everyone. My personality changed to fit the situation, or to suit others, and what I thought they needed from me. A deeper fear drove me–if someone truly knew me they would not love me. This spilled over into all of my relationships, where I lived life on an emotional roller coaster, as I worked night and day to earn love and acceptance.

While God placed within the heart of every human being the need and desire to love and be loved, it was never His intent for us to earn love. Thinking we must earn love is a burden we humans place upon ourselves and each other. We see this in every aspect of our lives, and we easily fall prey to a system of beliefs and teachings that reinforce our need to earn love, acceptance and approval. Ultimately, our longing for love should move us towards God where we find He and He alone can fully meet all of our needs.

If you, like me, struggle with performance–earning love and acceptance from God and others–challenge your beliefs and why you believe the way you do. A life of performance is impossible to live out, and it is exhausting. Search out truth, turn to God’s word (Bible) for what He says is true about you, and your relationship with Him and others. Our God is a God of grace, love and mercy, and if you seek Him you will find Him, and He will be found faithful as He reveals His truth, and His love for you!

When you find yourself pulling petals off daisies–performing to earn love and acceptance–like me, you too will be able to turn to the true object of your affection, and say with confidence–He loves me, He loves me lots!

Daisies & Lady Bug

God bless you & remember, He loves you, He loves you lots!


1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. John 1:1 ~ 14 The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us. We have seen his glory, the glory of the one and only Son, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth. John 1:14 ~ 17 For the law was given through Moses; grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. John 1:17

14 When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father,[a] 15 the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth.[b] 16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 3:14-19

8 God saved you by his grace when you believed. And you can’t take credit for this; it is a gift from God. 9 Salvation is not a reward for the good things we have done, so none of us can boast about it. 10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. Ephesians 2:8-10

13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Jeremiah 29:13

Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. John 8:32

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Trials To Joy

A new year brings with it a new beginning and a fresh start. That’s how it feels for me as I leave the old year behind and settle into the new. Somehow, it makes me stop and reflect on what was and what is to come. Personally, I’m excited about moving forward to see what the new year will bring.

As I settle in, I bring with me those experiences that I have learned from–the ones that stretched me in some fashion, shape or form. Somehow, these are the experiences that seem to catch my attention and teach me the most about myself and God.

Recently, I was reading through Romans when Romans 5:1-5 caught my attention. This is where the apostle Paul tells us we can continue to rejoice even when we’re experiencing problems or trials. Now, that’s not necessarily an easy thing to do. My first reaction at the sign of trouble is to immediately scream and default to fear! I always manage to find my balance, but, first I seem to enjoy hanging out in fear.

Eventually, I grab ahold of the truth, and as truth promises to do peace and freedom come. Yet, according to Paul, we can rejoice during these problems and trials. Slowly but surely, I am discovering that all things I go through on this earth will teach me and refine me in some way. Paul tells us our problems and trials help us develop endurance, endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.

Paul clearly intends for us to understand, that through Christ, our problems and trials can make us better people and should not make us angry, bitter people. Realizing this we can actually find reasons to praise God and even experience joy in the midst of our most painful moments.

Thank goodness life is a balance of incredible joy mixed in with times of suffering. Both will build us up, build our faith, and if we are paying attention and watching, we will see God in all things. We will know His presence and experience His perfect peace, both of which ultimately lead to incredible joy.

As you continue moving forward into this new year my hope and prayer for you is that you will live out life expecting great things, experiencing great joy and knowing without a doubt how dearly God loves you.Girl Field of Yellow Flowers

May God richly bless you as He turns your trials to joy!


Therefore, since we have been made right in God’s sight by faith, we have peace with God because of what Jesus Christ our Lord has done for us. Because of our faith, Christ has brought us into this place of undeserved privilege where we now stand, and we confidently and joyfully look forward to sharing God’s glory.  We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. Romans 5:1-5

Don’t fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.  Philippians 4:6-7

Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. James 1:2

Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying. Romans 12:12

You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever. Psalms 16:11

You have endowed him with eternal blessings and given him the joy of your presence. Psalms 21:6

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Sozo Love

Sozo  Logo

Call me crazy, but I’m excited over my recent discovery of the Greek meaning for our English word save, saved or salvation–sozo. In the Greek sozo is rich with meaning and has completely changed the way I view Biblical references to what we refer to as being saved.

Sozo in the Greek has 3 distinct parts which mean salvation, healing and deliverance, to make well, to make whole and complete.

A form of the word salvation–sozo–appears over and over again in the Bible to describe the work of Jesus and what He came to earth to accomplish.

There is so much more going on here than initially meets the eye! 

We are made up of 3 parts: We are spirit, body and soul with the soul being the mind, will & emotions.

Sozo Chart

Sometimes our tendency is to think in terms of only one part of the whole–we focus on our salvation as how to avoid hell. Yet, the full meaning of the word, salvation, is so much richer and deeper than we can begin to image. It is true, Jesus came to save (sozo) us from eternal separation from God; therefore, we are reconciled (reunited, bringing back together again) to God to spend all eternity with Him–we are spiritually awakened saving us from spiritual death. Yet, something else marvelous is happening at the same time. Jesus’ redemptive work on the cross was meant to bring restoration (repairing, mending, rebuilding) to the whole person. He wants to heal and restore the whole of who He created us to be–not just in part, but in whole–that means wholeness and completeness of spirit, body and soul. This is good news indeed!

With that said, I am not implying that all healing of body and soul will take place on this earth. I’m simply saying, it is His desire that we are whole and complete in the here and now. I will say, I firmly believe our starting point is always with our spiritual condition where we move from being spiritually dead to God, to being spiritually alive to God, and we move from that point forward. We are spirit beings, and we need spiritual resolution between us and God before His healing and wholeness can take place in us as He intended.

I seriously doubt, I am the only battle worn person in the universe that has struggled with issues of the soul–my mind, will and emotions. I have battled pain memories and traumas that have held me in bondage keeping me from living out the life I was meant to live. Unresolved pain and/or trauma can control how we live out life, and how we do relationships. These pain memories can be constant triggers creating havoc and chaos in our life, and the life of those we love. Am I the only one, or are there others who know exactly what I am talking about?

I don’t know about you, but, I think it’s a game changer when we fully comprehend and realize how Jesus in His love and compassion for us–not only spiritually wants to give us life–He also desires for us to be completely whole in the here and now. Better yet, He provided a way for wholeness to become our new reality. We have not been left alone and helpless–He is present with us–He is Immanuel, God With Us!

Sounds good, sounds promising and sounds filled with hope, but how do we get to that place? Glad you asked–we will start talking about that in future post!

God bless you and may you know His “sozo” love!


21 She will bear a Son, and you shall call His name Jesus [the Greek form of the Hebrew Joshua, which means Savior], for He will save His people from their sins [that is, prevent them from [a]failing and missing the true end and scope of life, which is God]. Matthew 1:21 Amplified Bible – A word search of the words save, saved and salvation found 387 scripture references.

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